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Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts

I love. I miss.







































I love writing long mails.
I miss writing long mails.
Now as I say it, I realise I have hardly ever received long mails.

I love giving surprises.
I keep giving surprises to many.
Now as I say it, I barely recollect any surprise given to me.

I love walking in the rain.
I miss walking with a good company in the rain.
Now as I say it, I can't remember the last time I didn't walk alone in the rain.

I love laughing loudly.
I miss laughing loudly without being conscious.
Now as I say it, I look around to make sure I can laugh loudly.

I love the beach.
I want to live by the beach all my life.
Now as I say it, I get nostalgic about each trip made at the beach.

I love romance.
I miss the mills and boon's cheesy yet dreamy romance.
Now as I say it, I wonder if such passionate romance will ever return.

I love stories.
I love, Love-Stories.
Now as I say it, I need to build an interesting, fresh, real love story.

I love taking chances.
I miss taking chances.
Now as I say it, I discover that I am playing too safe lately.

I love initiating.
I hate concluding.
Now as I say it, I need to figure out what next to initiate while concluding this.

Turning 25 !

So what's the big deal about BEING 25 anyway? 



FYI; Been there done that
I am 25 after all, woohoo howzzat?
Enjoyed childhood, a lil rascal indeed
Had ample of time, 24x7 fun I would breed.

School was not just to pass but score
Even after great marks I would want some more.
Every other friend was almost a best buddy
Would play for hours in the sun, get wet and muddy.

Few cute crushes grew as time passed by
In front of the 'Boys' would feel too shy.
Sometimes those cute boys smiled and winked
Had reached puberty, so no gossip I missed or blinked.

A gang of girls, we laughed n discussed everything
Anyone's PMS meant praying for her well-being.
From love to exams, life was such a big deal
A secret meant a serious pact, our mouths would seal.

Wanted to grow old as adult life seemed too cool
But while stepping into junior college I felt like a fool.
With too many happening people around
Very few friends in common I found.

Most of them were wannabes of the first order
Trying to look good was a common mental disorder.
It didn't matter to them how much one spoke
As long as the so-called friend wasn't broke.

Bunking classes was the ultimate achievement
Talking ill about teachers was the greatest entertainment.
College was only to pass, not score
And every lecture seemed, o' such a bore!

Boys became Guys, Teachers become Profs
Periods became Lectures and Geeks became Dwarfs.
But life found a goal and I became serious finally
By 12th I was back in my senses; had to happen eventually.

Hard work paid off and I entered a new zone
A kick-ass art college with creativity as it's backbone.
I don't think I can ever thank enough
To have lived that life, which never seemed tough.

Everyone was nice, hilarious, arty and adorable
My life was never so better and this comfortable.
Learnt more outside the library sipping chai
Wada Pav was the staple diet, I wonder why?!

Infinite wasting of time every single day
4 years of utter time-pass, I would say.
Each moment was worth it, I still cherish it
But job life changed the scene and I had to live with it.

Working life was totally different and new
Every single day demanded to prove a few.
Ideas, Art, Awards they needed it all
But in that cat race I would often fall.

A crying shoulder is what I wanted the most now
A perfect companion I found in my friend and how.
We spent good times yapping for hours
Life was happy chirpy and smelled like fresh flowers.

Suddenly felt like spring, it was blossom
The term called 'life' indeed was superb and awesome.
Everything seemed perfect like a mannequin in the store
I would often thank God, didn't ask for anything more.

Found a better job too so now life was great
Nothing bad could happen now to my fate.
But as you know destiny plays an important role
And a few dreams shattered which ruined my goal.

It took time for me to rise up again
Shocked & disappointed, my heart was in pain.
Life surely plays the biggest testing games
And thus I had to eradicate a few names.

But that didn't weaken me too much
Fighting back strongly is my nature as such.
I gave time to myself and that helped me come out
From a disaster that made me stronger, no doubt.

Back to normalcy in a few weeks time
Back to my nasty, naughty, the funny one in crime
A better wiser person I have sure become
Waiting for something awesome to strike, interesting ones welcome!

Have diverted my mind into office with dedication
As working hard I found to be the medication.
As pockets fill up, my smile gets bigger
And I love to see the increasing bank account figure.

Obviously I love my life and I love myself yo!
Being 25 couldn't get any better, so many more to go.
While friends are busy getting married or hooked
I have a date with myself, an awesome dream has been booked ;)

Another year passes by...



So, one more year coming to an end.

2010 - A year filled with rather all possible emotions. A whole movie could be made for this year, if my life is taken as the key subject in the script. Is fillum mein action, drama hai, comedy  hai, emotions, suspense, dhak dhak, dard, khushi, gum, paisa, kangaal, naya ghar, purane rishtey, naye rishtey, fights, shouts, rona dhona aur super music ka zabarsast combination hai. Ye film mein sabkuch hai, isiliye zara 'hatke' hai!

I have never had such a roller coaster ride before in my life. 2010, has indeed been a benchmark for my maturity, stability and the birth of a new, improved and fresh curry...Ready to be dipped, as always! (Ok, i was highly paid by a publication house to write about my maturity and self development. I usually don't praise myself, do i :D)

I define 2010 as an antonym of emotions:

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Excitement
Monotony
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A new beginning
A sad Ending
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Vacation
No Break
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Freedom
Mental Block
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Dreams
Routine
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Fulfillment of some dreams
Shattering of few others
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Surprises
Shocks
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Family
Loneliness
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Technology
Overdose of social media
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Forgiveness
Grudges
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Expectations
Acceptance
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People getting married
People breaking up
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Consolation
Confirmation
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Worrying about the Future
Laughing over the Past
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FIFA World cup Obsession
Irregular workouts
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Musical
Silent
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Beaches
Benches
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New Beautiful Journeys
Over crowded Trains
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Change
More Change
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Star Gazing
Star Movies
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How I met your mother
How I met myself
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Mac Book Pro
Pro Reader
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Transitions
Terminals
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Adobe Photoshop CS5
Adobe Flash CS3
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Good byes
Hellos
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Waiting
No more waiting
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Lively
Dull
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New ventures
Nostalgia
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Regrets
Hopes
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Closure
New Entries
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Good Riddance 2010
Good Morning 2011
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Date Vate


Chalo jaayein hum date pe,
Gaadi nahi toh rickshaw se
Jaakar kahi hotel mein
Khaayen peeye bhar pet se

Thandi beer aur rasili wine se
Shurwaat kare hum shaam
Chicken lollipop paneer chilli
Ke baad bahot aaram

Dhakaar aaye toh zara rokiyo!
Accha nahi yoon karna
Impression jamaana hai bhai
Nahi hai humko marna

Abh hotel ke baad next kya?
Chalo karte hai garden mein sair
Phool patte jhaadi aur hum
Naughty na baniyo, its not fair!

Arre dekho baarish aa gayi
Bheegne mein aaye bada mazza
Chhatri ka kya kaam yahaan?
Zara zukaam se de do khudko sazaa 

Phir chalein hum samundar ki ore
Wah! kitna breezy hai yahaan
Kuch geet gaaye , thoda naache bhi
Ekdum romantic ho jaye wahaan

Uh oh ghar jaane ka aa gaya time
Phir kab miloge ye mat poochna
Kal hi miltey hai kisi aur jagah
Milkar kya karenge ye zaroor sochna ;)

F-E-A-R-R-R-R

            
                          Fear me
                          Fear now
                          Fear change
                          Fear how!

                                            Fear life
                                            Fear death
                                            Fear god
                                            Fear now!
                                   
                                                            Fear love
                                                            Fear pain
                                                            Fear failure
                                                            Fear hell!

                                                                              Fear this
                                                                              Fear that
                                                                              Fear all
                                                                              Fear none!

~ T h e ~ B E A C H ~

  
Someday it rained.
Someday it was breezy.
Someday it splashed.
Someday it was dry and easy.

It knew I was coming.
Always gave me a warm welcome.
The endless horizon & dancing waters,
Always helped me overcome

As if it knew my pains.
As if it knew I needed a hug
With it's wide arms stretched to no limit,
It helped me fight the worry-bug.

When I walked on it's sand,
It tickled me, brought back my smile.
We were accompanied by the rhythmic waves.
We sang, whistled, plunged & enjoyed the mile.

Only there, I found solace.
Only there, I found the real me, no one else around.
The sheer fact of taking a stroll there,
Would pep me up the whole day round.

It made sure I had the best time
It made sure my frown was gone.
With those positive vibes and beautiful quotes,
It saw to it that I moved on.

Here I am, much better, wiser & stronger.
Waiting for another walk by the beach.
With so much treasure to share & spread,
I'll wait for it to embrace me again and teach !


A-D-D-I-C-T-I-O-N


Addicted? Accept it. Fight it. Get over it damn it!

The dictionary meaning of this word is "being abnormally tolerant to and dependent on something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming"
. In rather simple words, it means an abnormally strong craving.

Ok, full marks for that. So what? We all know what it means. Why am I preaching then?

Well, I am simply laying my thoughts out of experience here!


Being committed to something is like an addiction. Be it to drugs, alcohol, internet, work or even people. But there's a slight difference between being 'attached' and 'addicted'. You don't get addicted to everything you are attached to. But yes, you are attached to things you are addicted to.
It takes a while to realize that this habitual dependency on something/someone is rather more serious than mere attachment . The moment of realization occurs when this habit is suddenly cut-off without prior notice and you become restless. Sometimes your brain functions only the way you want to, ignoring the after effects. So here, you start getting withdrawal symptoms. And trust me, they can make your life hell. You start regretting. You start thinking why the hell did you even get addicted to something so unworthy. Yes, you finally accept you are an addict. Someone who is so ardently devoted to something that life without it becomes completely impossible. This abrupt deprivation of the substance produces certain negative energy making you weak; psychologically, physically and emotionally.

You feel hopeless without it.

You feel useless in this world suddenly.

You feel like giving up on life.

You feel like a fool to have been involved in it.
You feel compulsively restless.

You feel helpless like never before.

You feel your core existence is so meaningless.


You want it back. And quicker than ASAP! Gosh, how do I deal with this? Why did I get into it at the first place? Where is the CTRL + Z button when u need it? Or SHIFT + DELETE would be an even better option. I didn't know I was running behind a hypnotizing vicious circle. Your mind is blocked. Everything is blank. You see no future and you don't want to remember the past. You are compelled to heal in the present but you want to run away. The horizon seems farther, the sky looks wider and you can literally count every second of life. Time just doesn't seem to pass. Addiction is a chronic, relapsing disease which traps your mind and controls it. Because it was omnipresent. The more you try running away, the more you crave for it, unknowingly.
The very thought of being away from that one dear thing you thought gave you energy and purpose to live gives you shiver. But heck o' life, how can I just cease my contact with it, when I thrived on it for so long?

Every problem has solution. It may not be the simplest treatment but then who says life is an easy cup of cake? In reality you cannot have it unless you make an effort. At every step of life you have to prove yourself. Sometimes to your family, to your boss or to your dear one. Can't you, for a change prove yourself; for yourself?? Think about the mind which has been dedicated to you since you came in this world. Think of the organs which helped you live every moment. Think of the tiny little heart which made your days all throughout. For a change be selfish and just think about yourself. You will eventually find the 'one' way of fighting this addiction.

I am still searching for mine. My waiting eyes are drooping, tired and watery but haven't given up. One day will come, and this too shall pass.

I will conquer.........................................................................................
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Retro Revival : My love for that golden era...




R-E-T-R-O


The new techni-coloured era,
which has surpassed the black n white

Retro is what people are
Its how people shout, dance and strut about

Retro is what people wear
How people wine and dine

How they spend their time
In trying to make themselves shine

Retro is as cool as a mint green cucumber
as hot as scarlet burning coal
Retro is as subtle as baby pink
its an era of extreme goals


The hysterical event that began
With bold gypsy carefree mind
Is what is termed as retrospective
a complete new fresh phase of its kind

A period of 70s and 80s,
yet doesn't feel like history

because retro is never-ending
and its halt is a big mystery


Because wherever i go, i see retro
where attitude was chilled and at ease

such a strong influential phenomena
which just doesn't seem to cease...

My Super Mom!!




My Super Mom!
 
Always wondered how you do it,
From morning to midnight, you are on your toes,
The ultimate multi-tasker in the human kind,
That's you mumma, and it sure shows!

Never seen a freckle on your face,
Never have I heard a "No" in any case.
"Sure dear, I'll help" is what you always say
to Everything that comes your way.

When you embrace me with a hug
I can feel the unconditional warmth in it
You exactly know when i need you,
And what emotions in me lie beneath.

How do you understand me so well?
Even when I seldom share...
How do you help in times of trouble;
On times when anyone else wouldn't dare!

Oh mom, you are the greatest mumma
So gentle, yet so strong.
The many ways you show you care
Always make me feel I belong.

I go on with my problems,
to which u patiently give solutions
You're my cushion when I fall.
You support me whenever I call.

When times were good u smiled,
When times were worst you smiled
When i cry, you console me with a smile
When you cried, you still smiled.

Will I ever become like you?
So selfless, tender, patient, yet a fighter
Always showering unconditional love
And making the heavy moments lighter

I love your killer smile, your innocence
Everything about you, is so beautiful!
I love you so much; more than I can express;
My dearest mom, you are the most wonderful!