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I love writing long mails.
I miss writing long mails.
Now as I say it, I realise I have hardly ever received long mails.

I love giving surprises.
I keep giving surprises to many.
Now as I say it, I barely recollect any surprise given to me.

I love walking in the rain.
I miss walking with a good company in the rain.
Now as I say it, I can't remember the last time I didn't walk alone in the rain.

I love laughing loudly.
I miss laughing loudly without being conscious.
Now as I say it, I look around to make sure I can laugh loudly.

I love the beach.
I want to live by the beach all my life.
Now as I say it, I get nostalgic about each trip made at the beach.

I love romance.
I miss the mills and boon's cheesy yet dreamy romance.
Now as I say it, I wonder if such passionate romance will ever return.

I love stories.
I love, Love-Stories.
Now as I say it, I need to build an interesting, fresh, real love story.

I love taking chances.
I miss taking chances.
Now as I say it, I discover that I am playing too safe lately.

I love initiating.
I hate concluding.
Now as I say it, I need to figure out what next to initiate while concluding this.

Turning 25 !

So what's the big deal about BEING 25 anyway? 



FYI; Been there done that
I am 25 after all, woohoo howzzat?
Enjoyed childhood, a lil rascal indeed
Had ample of time, 24x7 fun I would breed.

School was not just to pass but score
Even after great marks I would want some more.
Every other friend was almost a best buddy
Would play for hours in the sun, get wet and muddy.

Few cute crushes grew as time passed by
In front of the 'Boys' would feel too shy.
Sometimes those cute boys smiled and winked
Had reached puberty, so no gossip I missed or blinked.

A gang of girls, we laughed n discussed everything
Anyone's PMS meant praying for her well-being.
From love to exams, life was such a big deal
A secret meant a serious pact, our mouths would seal.

Wanted to grow old as adult life seemed too cool
But while stepping into junior college I felt like a fool.
With too many happening people around
Very few friends in common I found.

Most of them were wannabes of the first order
Trying to look good was a common mental disorder.
It didn't matter to them how much one spoke
As long as the so-called friend wasn't broke.

Bunking classes was the ultimate achievement
Talking ill about teachers was the greatest entertainment.
College was only to pass, not score
And every lecture seemed, o' such a bore!

Boys became Guys, Teachers become Profs
Periods became Lectures and Geeks became Dwarfs.
But life found a goal and I became serious finally
By 12th I was back in my senses; had to happen eventually.

Hard work paid off and I entered a new zone
A kick-ass art college with creativity as it's backbone.
I don't think I can ever thank enough
To have lived that life, which never seemed tough.

Everyone was nice, hilarious, arty and adorable
My life was never so better and this comfortable.
Learnt more outside the library sipping chai
Wada Pav was the staple diet, I wonder why?!

Infinite wasting of time every single day
4 years of utter time-pass, I would say.
Each moment was worth it, I still cherish it
But job life changed the scene and I had to live with it.

Working life was totally different and new
Every single day demanded to prove a few.
Ideas, Art, Awards they needed it all
But in that cat race I would often fall.

A crying shoulder is what I wanted the most now
A perfect companion I found in my friend and how.
We spent good times yapping for hours
Life was happy chirpy and smelled like fresh flowers.

Suddenly felt like spring, it was blossom
The term called 'life' indeed was superb and awesome.
Everything seemed perfect like a mannequin in the store
I would often thank God, didn't ask for anything more.

Found a better job too so now life was great
Nothing bad could happen now to my fate.
But as you know destiny plays an important role
And a few dreams shattered which ruined my goal.

It took time for me to rise up again
Shocked & disappointed, my heart was in pain.
Life surely plays the biggest testing games
And thus I had to eradicate a few names.

But that didn't weaken me too much
Fighting back strongly is my nature as such.
I gave time to myself and that helped me come out
From a disaster that made me stronger, no doubt.

Back to normalcy in a few weeks time
Back to my nasty, naughty, the funny one in crime
A better wiser person I have sure become
Waiting for something awesome to strike, interesting ones welcome!

Have diverted my mind into office with dedication
As working hard I found to be the medication.
As pockets fill up, my smile gets bigger
And I love to see the increasing bank account figure.

Obviously I love my life and I love myself yo!
Being 25 couldn't get any better, so many more to go.
While friends are busy getting married or hooked
I have a date with myself, an awesome dream has been booked ;)

Another year passes by...



So, one more year coming to an end.

2010 - A year filled with rather all possible emotions. A whole movie could be made for this year, if my life is taken as the key subject in the script. Is fillum mein action, drama hai, comedy  hai, emotions, suspense, dhak dhak, dard, khushi, gum, paisa, kangaal, naya ghar, purane rishtey, naye rishtey, fights, shouts, rona dhona aur super music ka zabarsast combination hai. Ye film mein sabkuch hai, isiliye zara 'hatke' hai!

I have never had such a roller coaster ride before in my life. 2010, has indeed been a benchmark for my maturity, stability and the birth of a new, improved and fresh curry...Ready to be dipped, as always! (Ok, i was highly paid by a publication house to write about my maturity and self development. I usually don't praise myself, do i :D)

I define 2010 as an antonym of emotions:

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Excitement
Monotony
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A new beginning
A sad Ending
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Vacation
No Break
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Freedom
Mental Block
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Dreams
Routine
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Fulfillment of some dreams
Shattering of few others
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Surprises
Shocks
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Family
Loneliness
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Technology
Overdose of social media
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Forgiveness
Grudges
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Expectations
Acceptance
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People getting married
People breaking up
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Consolation
Confirmation
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Worrying about the Future
Laughing over the Past
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FIFA World cup Obsession
Irregular workouts
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Musical
Silent
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Beaches
Benches
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New Beautiful Journeys
Over crowded Trains
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Change
More Change
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Star Gazing
Star Movies
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How I met your mother
How I met myself
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Mac Book Pro
Pro Reader
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Transitions
Terminals
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Adobe Photoshop CS5
Adobe Flash CS3
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Good byes
Hellos
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Waiting
No more waiting
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Lively
Dull
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New ventures
Nostalgia
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Regrets
Hopes
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Closure
New Entries
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Good Riddance 2010
Good Morning 2011
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~ T h e ~ B E A C H ~

  
Someday it rained.
Someday it was breezy.
Someday it splashed.
Someday it was dry and easy.

It knew I was coming.
Always gave me a warm welcome.
The endless horizon & dancing waters,
Always helped me overcome

As if it knew my pains.
As if it knew I needed a hug
With it's wide arms stretched to no limit,
It helped me fight the worry-bug.

When I walked on it's sand,
It tickled me, brought back my smile.
We were accompanied by the rhythmic waves.
We sang, whistled, plunged & enjoyed the mile.

Only there, I found solace.
Only there, I found the real me, no one else around.
The sheer fact of taking a stroll there,
Would pep me up the whole day round.

It made sure I had the best time
It made sure my frown was gone.
With those positive vibes and beautiful quotes,
It saw to it that I moved on.

Here I am, much better, wiser & stronger.
Waiting for another walk by the beach.
With so much treasure to share & spread,
I'll wait for it to embrace me again and teach !


LIKE I CARE !!!!!


Like I Care !


How does it matter if a guy wears pink?

How can u term someone ^pervert^ by a mere wink!

Why can’t a guy have long undone hair?

Or an un-waxed girl who looks like a bear.


Who made this word ‘etiquette’ so mandate?

Why can’t I laze around n start my day late?

Like I care if I don’t have matching shoes

Why the heck should I follow the don’ts n do’s?


I like to make noise while eating

I like to snore aloud while sleeping

I like disturbing the whole world with my sneeze

But hate to apologize later with an excuse-me please!


Why can’t I just be myself?

Why can’t I have an unorganized shelf?

Why can’t I keep hogging without getting fat?

Why do I need to be as clean-freak as a cat?


Why do all decide what’s good for me, but me?

Why can’t I simply take a break from the outer-me?

Why do I need to fake drink in front of my boss?

Why the hell should I always worry about job-loss?


Why can’t I be poor?

What’s the need to always lure?

How can others predict my future?

While claiming me as immature!


Heck I care, who was with my neighbour last night!

Heck I care why the dumb celebrities fight!

Why exaggerate everything as Breaking News?

Why grab attention like a bursting fuse?


I repeat, it doesn’t matter to me if I fail

To forward those forwarded emails

I know what’s more important in life,

So please don’t act as a cynical blunt knife...


Because I really don’t care

Nor do I need a proof to dare

Something stupid just to impress you all

Like I care if I you see me fall!

I Can't Write

I can't write well..I cannot write good stuff..i cant write..i don't know how to write..i cant write at all..i am unable to express in writing the fact that i cannot write..i can't write n stuff..i can't write philosophy, spirituality, formal English, nice prose n poetry, nice sense-making write-ups, opening your eyes and self-realization tips, health tips, art of living tips, preachy tips, inspiring contents or any such "good nice decent and realllyyy ossom stuff"..so basically, i can't write. Yes, u heard it, i cant write. I can't write. I can't write. I can't write. I can't write. I can't write. I can't write. I can't write. I can't write. Oh ya, and did i tell you, that..I can't write?? I can't write. I can't write. I can't write. And the truth is that I can't write. I can't write!


How come you are still reading this crap?? Lol... I really can't write!


This reminds of a very funny punishment which was given in school..We were supposed to write this on the blackboard, say about hundred times (Even though if at that age, we didn't know how to count till hundred, haha).. A tribute to that 'holy punishment, with which i was always blessed'

" I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class" " I will not talk in the class!"

oh I so wished there existed "ctrl c+ ctrl v" during those punishment hours!!

Because...not just now, but even then, i couldn't write. Simply because i can't write..Ya, didn't you know that i cant write? I CAN'T write! Coz i really can't write. I can't write and i can't write!
I AM HAPPY TODAY!

I am Happy...
As it rained today after 20 odd days!
Not only because i like rains,
but coz Mumbai badly needs to get drenched,
to quench the thirst of its overpopulated family!

I am Happy...
As I had absolutely no work in office,
In the name of RnD, i have surfed the net all day,
In the name of a "break" i have played games,
In the name of self study, i have simply sketched!

I am Happy...
As i could leave from office early!
I could get wet in the beautiful rains,
Could hop through the dirty puddles,
Could reach home early and chill!

I am Happy...
Coz i spent superb time with "myself"
The "space" u need sometimes, only for yourself,
The time u want to be alone, doing nothing,
The time u just wanna stare at the sky,
The time u wanna gaze at the mirror for long!

I am Happy...
Coz i cracked a few jokes and spread the humor
And people actually laughed at those!
Their smiles made me smile...
Their stress got a bit busted, and so did mine!

I am Happy...
Since i listened to my favorite numbers!
And while i did so, i whistled and clapped...
From Kishore da to coldplay, from rehman to green day
I heard them all, enjoyed them all, hummed them all!

I am Happy...
As i was really so happy!
One of the very rare days, when,
I didn't crib or got frustrated
How many days go like that?
There's some or the other problem everyday!
And if there isn't, we create them
Simply because, man is never satisfied.
Wants everything. And when he gets everything, he doesn't realize it!
Still wants more. The want may be superficial.
The want may be unwanted, the want may be illogical.
But still he wants, wants and wants!

But I am Happy...
Coz i got what i wanted!
From rains to a stress-free day,
I had it all!
Not just that, but i also updated my blog!
Not just the blog, but I also read a book!
Not just the book, but I also cooked a bit!
Not just the food, but I also had sketched!
Dude! Am i the ultimate multitasker??
Oh yes i am..sure i am! And so I am happy.

I am Happy...
Because you read my blog.
You ACTUALLY did!
Oh i am so lucky,
and indeed very happy.
More happy coz i cud stay happy the whole day
Yippieeee! I am happy ..oh so Happy!